why, oh, why???

why... how could this happen to me??

my last semester pointer result really shows that I have NO passion at all in the course I'm taking now. what is happening to me? is this course really hard or is it me who is too STUPID to take this course??? ARGGHH~~!!!

I just check my result on UMS official website and what I see on the screen just now really turn me down. guess what did i get for my 2nd sem?

not even pass 3.0... 4 flat is far more to get.

and there isn't any improvement. chisss~

aiii, forget it. i really hate to let people know.

so sad. really in the DOWN mode.

tell you what... actually i don't know what I'm doing now. taking a course that i don't even have the basics, just to fulfill my dream to grade in degree level... isn't that STUPID?? I hate this course, frankly speaking.

E-Commerce. sounds like a great course & worthy to be taken by a FOOL like me. i still remember, when i got the offer from UMS to further my study as a degree student in e-commerce. i was thinking... is this course really suit me? i just don't know. but then, i chose to accept the offer & ended up studying in UMS Kampus Antarabangsa Labuan. after one year in Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan... another 3 years more in Labuan. haisshhh~~

after going through 2 semesters... yep, now i know that i'm not suit with this complicated course. C++, JaVa, technopreneurships, ethics & professionalisme in IT... aRGGhhh~~!! the fact that i can't do them all well really piss me off. I'M NOT A COMPUTER FREAK OKAY!!

yeah, yeah... i admit that my expression always become something like the picture above. especially during assignment times...

i had once shout "WHAT THE FUCK... ??!" in a public place, just because i got so stressed with my Java tutorial & at the same time, my lappy was running out of power (but thank God that i didn't lose my work... phew~). really... being too much exposed with technological stuffs (other than internet), especially for 'si bodoh komputer' like me, has turned me to be IMPATIENT, always CURSE & HOPELESS.

and in final exams, seriously, i don't even understand a thing i wrote on my answer sheets.

so when the result came out...

this course is not for me maybe?

i'm really disappointed with myself. i really don't know what to do. should i leave & take another course, or just hold on till the end...??

anyone? who are able to pick me up back after having so much downs in my life time as a U student? :(